I know you’re going through a lot right now. I know that whatever I’ll say here won’t matter but I want to help you. I want to be one of the reasons why you smiled today. That’s what I always wanted in my life; making other people happy everyday.
Do you think it’s your entire fault? Well of course you do. But always remember that it isn’t and will never be your entire fault. Have you considered the other party’s feelings? Or you only thought of how you felt? I know it’s hard but you should always consider the feelings of other people. An apology will not be enough but if that’s the least you can do at the moment, then why won’t you give it a shot? At least, you did your part already. But always remember to be genuine in every “I’m sorry” you say. If the other party won’t give a single fuck about it, then don’t feel bad. Time heals everything. Just wait. At least, you were genuine with your apology. Just always remember that good things come to those who wait. That’s what my friend told me.
Do you think she’s starting to fall for the guy he always talks to? Meh. I know you do think of that because that’s what you always see and she doesn’t talk to you anymore. But don’t worry; what you had will always be special to her. I mean, c’mon, you were both happy together. You might not have worked out until the end but you guys had fun And who knows? Maybe you were just over thinking and she’ll find her way back to you. But don’t take my word for it. I said maybe. And you can never hold on to “maybes” and “what ifs”. Just go and have fun too. Always remember that you have loads of friends. Yes okay, she’s special. But she’s not there anymore for you as often as how it was before. Appreciate what you have. Time heals. And maybe, just maybe, you’ll find your way back to each other.
Do you think your “life” left you? No it didn’t. You left your life. Always remember to put your key to happiness in your pocket. Not in someone else’s. Yes okay, she made you happy everyday and making her happy was your game. But the game’s over for now. Take a rest before returning back to the game. And who knows, maybe you’ll realize that it’s better that way or maybe you’ll both realize that you love each other and would want to be together again. I’ve known a couple of people who seemed so hopeless but at the end, they managed to find their ways back to each other. What’s meant to be is meant to be. What’s meant to be will always happen.
Do you feel bad that you always give a chance? Don’t. Because it’s always nice to give other people a chance. It means that you’re forgiving and you believe that someone or something can possibly change. But of course, that chance should only be given to genuine people like you. Why? Because you’re too nice and you don’t deserve to be a bag at a baggage counter that anyone can go back to anytime they want. Remember that you accept what you deserve. And you deserve to be happy. Always ask yourself first before everything, “Do I deserve this?”
I know my friend, it sucks. I’m feeling right now whatever you’re feeling. Each one of us is carrying a burden no matter how light or how heavy it is. But whatever it is, always remember that we’ll get through this. We’ll get through anything. Just always remember that good things come to those who wait. Always remember that the both of us deserve to be happy. For now, smile. That’s the only thing important now; your happiness. If you ever find yourself really hopeless, always remember that He’s always by your side and He’ll always give you the strength that you need.
I hope I helped and made you smile today. You’re not alone, friend. :)
“It’s you and me forever.”
Hearing those words enticed me so much with what could be there for me. The first time I heard it, I didn’t want to believe because I’ve heard that already a lot of times and it all failed me. She knows that. But the thing is, she showed me things that I should. And so I did believe and I’m happy I did.
We’ve been through a lot. When I say a lot, I mean a lot. We fought like Tom & Jerry and loved each other like Shrek & Fiona at the end of every day. Yes okay, I saw her flaws. Like how she forgot that I just simply want to know where she is at the moment, how she forgot that I’m waiting for her call or text message, how busy she got and didn’t notice that I miss her, how she forgot her promise that we’ll eat lunch together and all the little things that mattered much to me. At first, I didn’t want to live with her flaws but you see, as your relationship grow, you learn how to understand and accept that she can’t be what you expect her to be in your relationship. You’ll just try to understand her because you love her and you don’t want her to go and get tired of you because you’re pushing her to be what she’ll never be. But sometimes, everything changes and it’s already too late to realize these things.
I was unhappy too but I wanted to fight for us because I can still feel that there can never be anything better than being with her. She knows I won’t give up on her. We shared things that we only know of. No one will ever know and understand how much we love each other and how much we care about each other. But you see, people have their own limitations. I just haven’t reached mine yet. And I don’t know what to feel about it.
It’s so hard to cope with what’s happening now. I’m used to forcing myself to have wi-fi by 5:00 – 6:00 pm or reach home by that time because I know she’ll reach home at that time and message me already. I don’t want to keep her waiting for me for a long period of time. I don’t want her to worry about me where I’ve been or whatever because we live a bit far from each other. And now, it sucks that no one’s waiting for me anymore when I get home. It’s sad that no one cares for me that much before than how she used to. It’s sad that I’m on my own right now. It’s sad that a lot has changed. And guys, it’s really, really, really hard for me right now to live with these changes. I just don’t feel like I’m doing well without her. I miss my home.
I love her so much and I’m sure of that. I know I always point out her every fault but I love her so much. I could never understand myself for hurting a girl like her without even noticing it. I love her and that’s certain. Even though it’s really tiring, I won’t lose the will to fight until I can.
No matter how exhausting it is to keep on understanding someone, just do it. Especially when he or she is someone you love because you’ll never know until when he or she can fight for the both of you regardless how much he or she loves you. I know it’s very tiring to do that all the time but at the end of it, it’s still a thousand times better to see the person you love happy by your side. But if you really can’t fight anymore, just take a break. You’ll both find your way back to each other in the end. And maybe, things could be better this time. And if not, just be happy you guys happened. I know it’s hard but we can never do anything about it if they just totally lost it.
Things happen for a reason. It always does.
Let’s all open happiness!
Maki martsa kasama ang sambayanang Pilipino upang ipaglaban ang tamang paggamit sa pera ng bayan!
The Bedan Herald; Clarete, Suarez | 2013
inevitable [in-ev-i-tuh-buhl] adj.
unable to be avoided, evaded, or escaped; certain; necessary
I never thought that I’ll be writing this letter; or even that I can write this letter. I always saw myself growing old with you. I was always happy with you. We always fought for us because that’s what we always wanted. Well, still. I do not even know why I’m writing this letter. Maybe because I’ve had enough; we’ve had enough. And I want to tell you things I never had the chance to tell you. Well, I am not sure how this letter is going to end so don’t assume yet until you finish this letter.
I always liked how you wipe off my sweat whenever I’m sweaty. Well I always am and so you always do that to me and I always loved you for that. I like how much you hated pork and how much I love pork. I like it how you always influence me to read a book because I never wanted to and still, do not. I like it that you’re always insecure because you can’t see what I see in you. I like how bad you are in cooking and everything that’s between you and cooking. I like it how much you supported me with the things I loved and always wanted just to make me feel that I am doing the right thing and fuck others who get into my way. I like it how different you are from the others. I like it that you’re you and nothing else.
I like it that you’re my best friend and no one can know me more than you do. You knew every single thing about me. From how geeky I am to how I like to eat my chicken to my dreams, my fears, my weaknesses, myself being a bipolar and the hell lot more. You knew the worst side of me but there’s always something in you that makes yourself understand me and that it was just nothing, I’m just being nuts and you can forgive me for that.
I like it each time you looked into my eyes and use them to tell me how much you love me and how much I matter. I always loved those hazel glazy eyes no matter how much you hate them when they get twisted.
I liked everything about you and me; as simple as that.
But maybe, after all this time that we’re together, things change. We fought over the silliest things. We fought over late text messages, going home late, your new friend, drinking too much or simply because I spilled your tea. And worse, the fight over these silly things will get bigger and will last for days. Next thing you know, we’re fighting over the rental just because I spilled your tea.
Each night we fought like this and I know you’re tired about these shits already and I feel so lost already. Lost in such a way that I can’t find the right words to tell you that I care or in such a way that I can’t say I love you anymore because I’m too shy to tell you those words after everything that I have done. So maybe, I want to break up with you. Maybe I do not feel to myself anymore that I’m the one for you. Whenever I tell you that I feel this way you’ll just say “then do something about it” when in fact I’m already doing something about it. Saying those words to me just makes me feel like I’m not doing anything about it when in truth, I really am doing something. It makes me feel so small that you make me feel that I’m not doing anything. But maybe, what I’m doing is just not enough. I do not even feel enough for you and for the one hundredth time, I don’t know what to do about it.
But I thought, if I’ll break up with you, then everything we’ve fought for will just mean nothing. It will just seem like we prolonged the agony. I’m not going to give up because I still believe that no matter how many times we fight over that spilled tea, we’ll still want each other. I still believe that at the end of a tough day it would still be you and me. So why would I give up when you’re not giving up? Plus, if I’ll give up then that would just seem like losing my best friend who knew the songs that will get in to my heart not only when I’m happy, but also when I’m sad.
You really are important to me. No matter what happens, I’ll always see you as the person whom I’ll be with sixty years from now. You’ll always be the owner of the tea I’ll always spill. You’ll always be the person I’ll argue with just because of a late replied text message.
Well, I wish you won’t give up on me like how I won’t give up on you no matter what we’re going through. I wish you won’t get tired of understanding me during my bipolar days. I wish you’ll always wish that I’ll be the one you’ll always wake up next to. I promise that I’ll always cook you your favorite breakfast which is not bacon. (Yup, I noted that one because you’re the one out of one million people who do not appreciate the fatty goodness of bacon.) I also promise to cook good food every dinner so you will be able to relax after your long tiring day from work. You might say, it’s easy to promise the impossible but I swear that together, we’ll make the impossible possible.
Thank you for being you. I love you so much.