Suarez 2011
Wide Aperture*
Instagram Photo Compilation I (October 2012)
i like how this photo came out ☺
There are billions of people around in this planet where we live and you and I are just one of those billions who fights, believes, struggles, whose heart is breaking and of course, whose heart is loving. Because of this reason I once again asked myself “How can I make sure that the one I love is the one?”. Stupid question but have you ever wondered? I mean, there are billions people around us and the person we love is just like us; one of the billions. No matter how long you are staying with the person you love, I bet you still once wondered “Is he or she the one?”.
People change, feelings change. That’s the scariest thing in our world. That can also be the reason why people are afraid to love. I myself was once afraid and still afraid to do so. I am afraid because of the uncertainties life can bring. I am afraid because life can always find a way to ruin your oh so happy life when you’re at its peak. I am afraid because I was hurt. I am afraid because there is no assurance that this is it. But if I’m afraid, how can I be happy again if I won’t take the risks again right? How can I be happy if I won’t give it a shot?
When I was at the point in my life where I thought the world was ending, everyone was there for me. Then there I realized that I deserve more than this. I deserve more than what I am chasing after or what I am holding on to that time. I deserve to be happy. I realized that this is just one person ruining my life then why should I wait or chase after that person? I mean, I have these friends who will never leave me and she’s just one. One of the billions.
In that moment in my life I met someone too. Someone whom I’ve known before but never got the chance to formally know each other. I mean, we never talked before but I know her. I know her because she’s this bubbly sophomore student before who makes me go “aaaahh!!” whenever I see her pass by the corridors or simply whenever our eyes meet. You know what I mean already, right? Lol. Right now, I am in my senior year and she’s in her junior year and God, I love her. I love everything about her. Her nerdy-ness, weirdness, stupidity, foolishness (If you’re reading this I’m sorry. I just had to you know.. :)) Hahaha! ), quirkiness, she’s smart and more!! The fact that she’s beautiful is just a bonus point for me. Nuxx. Hahaha!
I love her but the feelings of uncertainties are still there. The feeling of being unsure, the “is this it?” feeling… I don’t know actually but what the hell, right? All I know right now is that I have this person who makes me very happy and shows me what I am worthy of. I am enjoying what we have and what we are sharing right now. She makes me very happy and it’s been a long time since I last felt this happiness I am feeling right now. And because of this reason, I want to give her back the happiness she deserves. I want to make her smile everyday as how she makes me smile everyday and I want the smiles and happiness I can give her to last for a very long time.
Right now, you’re not just a part of the billions. You’re someone special out of the billions and I’ll make you feel how special you are. Thank you so much for everything. You just really don’t know how much happiness you are giving me right now. I love you, Maxinne. ☺
The photo above looks so suckish but what the hell it’s a photo of us. Lol. Hahaha!! =)) I hope you’re enjoying Vietnam! ☺
Belated happy birthday to you, TSC friend, Mitch Pimentel!! Can’t choose what photo to post okay =)) Love youu!! ☺
